Depression & Not Giving Up – Let’s Continue This Journey, Yo!


So something really shocking and quite funny happened 2 days ago. I re-uploaded an OLD video from May about Fidget Spinners on YouTube and BOOM… it ended up trending in Canada.

I was literally in the bath when my friend messaged me saying I’m trending. Leapt out, water everywhere and ran for the PC.

What surprised me was all the hate from all these Keyboard Warriors. Damn, people… why are you so angry??? And Canadians are supposed to be the friendly ones…

With that behind me, I’ve wanted to make a video for the last week now, but just had too much negative energy and felt I would do myself and you an injustice if I had to capture it on video.

That said, let’s get to it!

Who knows if this will get seen again, but let me just ask you to give it a chance before you say shit like “wtf”, “why is this trending”, “Die”, “shut the fuck up”, “fuck off”. Yup, those are the comments you leave.

Now, if you’ve either followed me or have seen any of my previous “better” videos, you’ll know what it’s all about. I won’t bore you, so go check it out.

The whole journey has kinda hit a wall, and the reason is and was 100% me. I am my own worst enemy at times, and I bet you, that you are too. We kinda reach certain areas or “proverbial walls” at times which kinda makes us want to just give up on life or whatever it was we were striving for.

  • “what’s the use?”
  • “Why bother?”
  • “there’s no point in me trying because I always end up failing in any case.”
  • “Nothing ever works out for me.”

I’ve heard it all. I’ve seen it all. This has been and still is my lifelong journey.

The last 2 weeks depression has raised its ugly head again, and for those of you out there who think you can just snap out of depression, it’s not so simple.

Sometimes, all you can do is lie in bed, and hope you fall asleep before you fall apart. – William C. Hannan

It’s crippling. It sucks every bit of life out of you. What once was passion has become work. Eating is an effort. God, breathing becomes “what’s the point”.

I feel it’s important to talk about these things and to mention it because people tend to shy away from this godawful thing. “shhh, we don’t talk about it.” And that’s total bullshit. I’ll touch very briefly on both aspects of this issue.

As I mentioned, depression sucks balls. Big hairy donkey balls. Oh and btw, what the hell is up with this new craze of idiots commenting “autism” on videos?? It’s disgusting, but I digress.

1 in 6 people in the world suffers from it. That’s around 1 Billion or so. That’s a shit ton of people.

Then you get those of you who just “feel depressed”. You’re not quite depressed, but you feel depressed. That sucks too, but it’s not nearly as crippling as the latter.

My point is that whatever your goals are. Whatever you strive for, you are bound to hit roadblocks. You’re bound to want to quit. You’re bound to just say, “fuck this”. That’s life. It’s normal, and you know what, it’s ok.

I started my body transformation journey 17 weeks ago. Sure I could have been further than I am now, but you know what, I’ve made peace with it. I’m not an athlete. I don’t have a point to prove. I’m doing this for me. And you should do whatever you do, FOR YOU! Nobody else.

I learned two essential things in the last two weeks.

  1. Dorian Yates taught me to challenge yourself by being a better version of yourself. Not by comparing yourself to other people. That’s the fastest way of getting discouraged.
  2. Some Indian guru man said “If you’re alone and depressed, you’re obviously in bad company.

My journey so continues, however instead of just focusing on and managing my body… from now on, I will focus on myself. I urge you to do the same. Don’t give up when things get tough. You’ve come too far, and you owe it to yourself… YOURSELF, to not give up!

I am Ru and let me end off by saying this…”if you’re alone and miserable, you’re obviously in bad company”.

OH and BE NICE!!!

Peace & Love!

Frustrated with the crazy that goes on inside my head, I decided to give myself over to putting proverbial pen to paper, in the digital sense. I love to write. I might not do it often, but boy when I do, I let loose. Techno Geek at heart with a passion for animals. I am Ru and this is my story.