Just over a year ago, I went on a journey. A journey that, at the time, I thought was the answer to all my questions.
See, ever since I can remember, I was a searching soul. A someone who couldn’t and wouldn’t just accept things for what they were in life. I questioned everything, including God.
And while I believe that is a good character trait to have, it can also end up causing you a lot of pain and heartache along the way.
Before I get into the point of the article, it’s important for me to lay a foundation. You know, give some context so as to give you the whole picture.
I feel that I need to write this article as a follow up to my original video on my experience with Ayahuasca. I also wrote a massive article on my experience that got featured on Medium and since then I’ve received countless amounts of feedback from people thanking me for sharing my experience as well as asking me how and where they could go to do the same.
In the past, I would have happily shared the info and sent them on their merry way, but I simply can’t anymore, hence why you’re seeing my face again.
Now, as I mentioned, the most significant part of my spiritual journey started in February of 2018. Ayahuasca was the “drug of choice” since it had such an incredible amount of people sharing their spiritual “awakenings”. Obviously, I wanted the same and so off I went.
What the title of this article doesn’t mention, is the fact that one thing led to another and I ended up going further down the rabbit hole.
I started taking psilocybin (or magic mushrooms).
Again, with such an amazing amount of positive feedback from people and because it’s so easily accessible, it naturally was the next step on my journey. Oh and the fact that it helps or apparently helps with depression (I cannot confirm or deny this fact).
What started out as the most incredible experiences of my life, quickly became the absolute worst. And when I say worst, I mean the kind where you literally wish death upon your life kind of worse.
Before I continue, I would like to quote something from the Bible for you and you’ll further understand why as I go on. To all the non-believers out there, stick around.
2 Corinthians 11:14 says…
“No wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light.“
I cannot think of a more fitting description of what happens when you enter the world of psychedelics. You quite literally leave planet earth.
In 2018 alone, I took mushrooms 15 times. And while some might say, “well obviously it’s going to start going all crazy if you take that much”, I would respectfully disagree with that statement.
See, while some people may only take it here or there, I wanted ALL the answers and I wanted it IMMEDIATELY. Just how I am.
And thank the Lord Almighty for the stubbornness that he gave me. Because let me tell you something. Had it not been for it, I would have still been lost. Totally and utterly lost.
So to those out there who think I overdid it, maybe I did, but rather that and finding the truth, then taking it here and there only to be hit with the truth 10 years down the line kinda thing. Know what I mean?
God works in mysterious ways and while we don’t always understand his methods, one thing I can testify to today is that he ALWAYS comes through for his children. ALWAYS!
This article is not meant to be my testimony from New Age to Christ (even though that’s exactly what happened), I will be writing another follow-up article with my testimony.
But I digress…
Psychedelics are nothing but tools used by Satan and his minions to get you hooked on “being woke“. The whole New Age movement, in fact, is based just on that.
Helena Blavatsky (whom, unfortunately not many of you who follow new age know) said:
“There is no religion higher than Truth.“
The problem with this statement is that the people, whether they really know what they are involved with or not, strive for truth, for knowledge, for all the answers. This is what the new age is founded upon.
Unfortunately, these psychedelic tools used are demonic in nature. Pure evil.
That’s exactly what I did. And while I thank God that he saved me and opened my eyes to what I thought was the truth, I cannot say the same for others. To those, I keep in my prayers.
Another thing I feel you need to know is that the majority of the people who do things like ayahuasca, magic mushrooms, iboga and so on are well-meaning people who simply do not recognize the dangers of what they are involved with or what they are pushing down people’s throats.
A classic case of the blind leading the blind.
Heck, even the so-called watchers of said groups haven’t got a clue as to what they are busy with. The scariest part of this is that it’s all done “with love” and by and through Gaia, mother earth.
And so, if you are one of the people, like I was, looking for answers to life, your purpose or whatever, here’s the best advice I can give you.
Turn to our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. He is the REAL truth.
John 14:6 reads…
“Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.“
No amount of “being woke” is going to matter when you have to stand in front of God one day. And I’m not talking about the “great I Am” kind of god that the new age preaches.
My life was in complete turmoil due to these new age beliefs. Remember how I mentioned wanting to end my life?
- Well, imagine being in total darkness.
- In a place where you’ve never been before.
- Now imagine around you are entities.
- Dark, sinister and dangerous entities.
- Everywhere you turn.
- Now imagine every single worry you’ve ever had in your life. Now imagine it amplified by 1 million.
- Now imagine losing your mind.
- And lastly, imagine the rest of your life like this.
That’s but one of the many many dark and sinister things that I have had to face while being on mushrooms. Yes, “beautiful and pure mushrooms“.
And I already hear some of you say, “sure Ruoall, but you only had a bad experience and it’s all about set and setting…”.
Again, I would have to disagree with you there.
We have absolutely no right to dabble with any other realms than what’s on earth or God’s realm.
I have never seen or heard any angels or demons ever in my life before. In fact, I questioned their existence most of the time. And so what happened to me the second last time I took mushrooms, made me see and realise what is actually going on.
After yet another extremely dark experience, I went and laid on a couch just to gather myself again. I was already coming off the most hectic part of the mushroom journey and so I was fully compus mentus.
While lying there, all of a sudden I heard something laughing at me. A deep, slow, sarcastic demonic laugh. At first, I thought I was imagining things, but then it happened again. That to me was proof enough that what I was involved with, was sending me down a very wrong road.
Before I end this article, I want to share my very last mushroom experience with you.
I was convinced that I was going to have a good time since it was at home. My own space. My own mushrooms I grew “with love” and an amazing person to watch over me.
I only took 4 g and it started off easy. Then everything went crazy again. I remember changing the music a few times “to get the mood right”. Everything from nature sounds, to classic music to light rock.
Nothing helped and I found myself in space. Yes, space. Or what looked like space at least. Whilst there, I had this incredible sense of “I wasn’t meant to be there“. Again, everything just went pear-shaped. Thoughts of suicide, worthlessness, anger, hate, hopelessness and so on came into my head.
I was losing my mind again and then God spoke to me. He told me to worship him. I put worship music on, fell to my knees and broke down completely.
Everything changed. The mood changed. The darkness subsided and I was greeted with this incredible amount of peace and love. Something that I have been searching for my whole life.
In an instant. At that moment. My life changed forever.
Jesus got his son back.
I want to end this article by begging you to stay away from any form of a psychedelic drug. As much as it sounds amazing, trust me when I tell you that it WILL torment your life.
Once you open that door, you are giving Satan and his demons dominion over your life.
From the bottom of my heart, I thank each and every one of you who prayed for me. Who supported me through my journey and who has been there every step of the way.
You proved to me the power of prayer.
And so I want to leave you with some truth
“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well” (Matthew 6:33)
Jesus loves you.